My Honest Look Within
Internally, I knew I could not spend the rest of my life chasing people expecting them to love me. Between my breakups and new hook-ups, I purposely tried to be happy by myself; but I was unsuccessful because the loneliness was too unbearable. I knew someday I would, once again be faced with the dilemma of loving someone else or choosing me.
This time, I chose me! I was determined to learn how to create my own inner peace and happiness because I never wanted to rely on someone else to make me feel good again. To make improvements, I first had to figure out what needed to be changed. I took a Personal Heart Inventory. The results were solid and true.
Below is an example of the top four things that I thought, if changed, would help me to create the inner joy I desired:
1. I work a lot to pay bills and buy things to please my partner. I don’t have much time to relax or do things I really like.
2. I busy myself to avoid feeling. I am constantly doing something or talking with others.
3. I don’t have any spirituality in my life. I only pray when things go wrong.
4. I chase and attach to others to feel loved. And I am too hasty with commitment.