Written by: Danielle Nutter
Why is it So Hard to Find & Keep Love
We all try to fill our lives with love, happiness, and success. The things that bring us the most pleasure are things we chase and try to hold onto. But when life steals our joy, it can leave us feeling sad, empty, and incomplete.
My Battle To Find & Keep Love
Ever since I was a young adult, I dreamed of finding my soulmate to share my life with. So, I committed to one relationship after another, hoping to find the perfect one to create my ideal family. Each time, I gave my partners my all and put up with many things I should not have for fear of being alone.
At the end of my fifth long-term relationship, I realized that true love was not in my cards, and I gave up on the fairy tale of happily ever after.
Step 3: Decide to turn our will and life over to God.
HEAL’N TEES
Heal’n My Battle With Finding & Keeping Love
Over the years, replacing one person with another left me with a lot of emotional baggage and an exhausted outlook. Therefore, I decided to take a different approach and find the love within that I heard so much about because I never wanted to rely on someone else to make me happy again!
Early in life, I accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord & Savior, hoping to live a good life of service and commitment. But as I grew older, I became addicted to human affection and roamed away from my path. After several endings with lovers, I realized I was in an emotional crisis and needed saving! To begin my venture of self-healing, I decided to lean on the divine to make me whole, and I turned my will and life over to God. I made a few bold and risky decisions to find God that made my family, friends, and my ‘sane self’ question my mental stability. Yet, deep down, I felt confident in my judgment and sensed there was no other way for me to become complete. I couldn’t go wrong allowing my Creator to rehabilitate me, right?
This is what I did:
1. I Quit My Job As An Educator
I was too depressed and irritated to do anything. My responsibilities at work became overwhelming, I could not eat or sleep regularly, and it wasn’t easy to positively engage with my students and the staff.
2. Rented Out My Home
Because I no longer had a steady paycheck, I couldn’t afford to pay the mortgage. So, I found a responsible renter to take over the payments to reserve my credit standing. Guess what? The first name of my tenant just happened to be the same as the street address of my house. Was that a coincidence or sign?
3. I Moved To Florida
I hosted a yard sale, sold all my belongings except for a few clothing items, and then relocated 900 miles away without a job, housing, or family.
4. I Purchased An RV And Became Friends With The Spirits Of The Sky
I cashed in my retirement and purchased a 31-foot Wildcat 5th Wheel. From there, I found a peaceful, friendly RV community to nestle down and reset my life. Guess what else? The RV salesman’s last name just happened to be the same as the street address of my home also! Was that another coincidence or sign?
When I finally settled down into my new way of living, I began to pray, meditate, read the books/stories in the bible, and explore ways to be more spiritual in hopes of connecting with my Lord and Savior.
Remember For Your Heal’n
Life can be complicated at times, causing us to feel broken and hopeless! We need to understand that there are situations the universe throws at us so that we can learn lessons, and then there’s the mess we create due to our ignorance and fears. Regardless of our troubles, we must be strong enough to seek self-improvement. The road to recovery must begin somewhere!
Transformation is necessary during our soul’s journey to becoming ‘whole.’ However, it is an individual assignment. We grow from the inside out! As a reward for the lone hard work, peace, and true happiness will become a part of your daily life. You will witness that God’s love truly heals!
You don’t have to do the same things I did, but review the beginning steps and commit to the process. Be courageous and accept the mission of your soul. You owe it to yourself!
Your Two Cents…
What actions have you taken to get closer to God? Leave your comment below.